overwhelmed

Whew! Lately my schedule has been brimming full! Lots to do-go here and do that, so I can be there and see them, before I need to go there and do this again. Several times I've whispered to myself, "What was I just doing? or "Where should I go first?" or "Oh look-I'm late again!" I think many gray hairs have sprouted too. I feel as if my life could be compared to one of those little kid toys, beads on wires sliding in roller coaster motions, often seen in doctor office waiting rooms. They're colorful and eye boggling and  even fun to play with-pushing and pulling the beads in all directions...yet when it's my life routine, it's not too amusing because it's hard for me to keep my attitude held calm while circumstances are seeming out of whack. You see it's not one more thing to do, its my whole hay stack of life that must be rearranged in order to follow suit. And because everything doesn't go how I think it will go-the best way, of course-I get discouraged, annoyed, and worry of failure sets in. At first I muster through hang-ups, but then it seems I have too much to bear...complaints and tears flow as if a tornado plowed through my hay stack.
What's sad is I've only taken on an extra few responsibilities for a couple of weeks that have altered my normal little routine. I enjoy being able to help others and cram my schedule full, and check off these extra duties from my list, yet my attitude and guilt levels have plummeted at the same rate-eek!
I've had moments of rationalizing my expectations to myself, taking deep breaths and telling myself  "I'm only human," but most of all, finding comfort from Bible verses that came leaping to mind. Thank the Lord for his reassuring Word! Failure on my own strength is okay because it's proven to me I need God and I need His strength!
Philippians 4:8 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication, let your requests be made known to God, and His peace will guide you.
Lamentations 3:22-24 The Lord's steadfast love never ceases, His compassions never fail, they are new every morning. Great is His faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, therefore, I have hope in Him.